Since you've been in heaven

I miss you so much...

I used to help you as we made the train
and stacked the wood
or built things in the workshop
my parents weren't happy I knew how to use the chainsaw
when I was just 11
these are the things I have been thinking about
since you have been in heaven,
You would come home and tell me
who was in the hospital
and who you discharged
as you sat with your crossword
or crotched some more yarn
I still have some of those stuffed animals you made
now they have gone to my kids
I was happy I thought you at least got to meet them all
Now we are expected number four
I miss seeing you walk through the door
I miss most the things when I was seven
the long walks and talks near the pond in the woods
this is what I miss since you've been in heaven
I hoped that you would last long enough for me to say
how much I loved you
when everyone else wasn't in the way
I missed my chance because my pride wouldn't let me
We did have that talk the night she passed away
I did say most of the things I had to say
these are some of my thoughts
Since you've been in heaven